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[31 Mar 2009|11:23pm] |
I'm washing my hands of you because you've chosen what's more important.
I'm not alone, either.
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[14 Jan 2009|12:09pm] |
Um...hello. So, last night I posted this entry, and none of you can see it because I made it private. Well, whenever I write in a journal, whether it be electronic or a paper one, I have this rule that I never delete anything I write. It's a self preservation thing, I guess I want to hold onto something, even if I only felt it for 3 minutes. I keep it there to remind myself that those feelings can exist within me.
And although none of you can read what I said last night, and it probably doesn't matter, I just wanted to let someone know that I REALLY DIDN'T MEAN IT. I'm serious. I didn't write anything bad. I didn't wish harm upon myself or anyone else. I just have weak moments sometimes, just like everyone else.
And now that's after noon and I'm fully conscious and aware, I just want everyone to know that whatever I was feeling last night is completely gone. I'm okay. I'm not relapsing or freaking out, sometimes I just don't really think about things before I type them.
Okay. Thanks. Just needed to vent.
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| I can't sleep when I've been drinking |
[20 Dec 2008|09:00am] |
- Available: for the most part
- Age: 19
- Annoyance: hangovers
- Animal: POLAR BEAR
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- Beer: bud light...yum!
- Birthday: april 8
- Best Friend: becca, roomies, courtney
- Best feeling in the world: laughing
- Blind or Deaf: blind
- Best weather: sunny, not humid, 80 or so
- Been in Love: yes
- Been on stage?: yes
- Believe in Magic: eh
- Believe in Santa: not since i didn't get the barbie jeep
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- Candy: reeses
- Color: purple
- Chocolate/Vanilla: both
- Chinese/Mexican: both!
- Cake or pie: both still...
- Continent to visit: uh...i haven't left this one
- Cheese: so many to choose from...how about provolone?
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- Day or Night: night.
- Dance in the rain: only if its warm
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- Eyes: green and blue
- Everyones has: dreams
- Ever failed a class: nope
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- First thoughts waking up: wait...what day is it?
- Food: corn dogs
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- Greatest Fear: isolation
- Goals: be a MILF with a hot husband
- Gum: stride
- Get along with your parents?: yes
- Good luck charm: white underwear with pink lace
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- Hair Color: blonde
- Height: 5' 10"
- Happy: so very
- Holiday: my birthday, which is coincidentally celebrated as a holiday because it is also buddha's birthday. oh, and thanksgiving
- How do you want to die: NOT mainlining mayonaise...
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- Ice Cream: cookies n cream
- Instrument: piano and alto sax
J
- Jewelry: oh yes, lots.
- Job: student
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- Kids: yes
- Kickboxing or karate: kickboxing
- Keep a journal?: nope
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- Longest Car Ride: trip to NY and CT
- Love: my friends and winter break!
- Laughed so hard you cried: last night when gotchy knocked over the pole
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- Milk flavor: 2%
- Motion sickness?: no
- McD’s or BK: mcd's cures any hangover
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- Number of Siblings: 2
- Number of Piercings: 6
- Number: 13
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- One wish: a wonderful new years
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- Perfect Pizza: gino's east
- Pepsi/Coke: coke from a fountain, pepsi from a bottle
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- Quote: " Real love is something that forces itself to always come back around."
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- Reason to cry: losing animals =(
- Reality T.V.: YES PLEASE, the pick up artist, rock of love, girls next door, the hills...
- Radio Station: 107.9 JAM-PAIGN
- Roll your tongue in a circle?: yes
- Ring size: don't know
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- Song: blinded by 3eb
- Shoe size: 9
- Salad Dressing: NOT thousand island
- Sushi: i'll try anything once
- Skipped school: yes
- Slept outside: yes
- Smoked?: yes
- Skinny dipped?: YES
- Sing well?: haha NO
- In the shower?: not since living with people other than my family...
- Swear?: yes
- Strawberries/Blueberries: strawberries
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- Time for bed: whenever the pokey sticks are gone
- Thunderstorms: cool
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- Unpredictable: the night
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- Vacation spot: hawaii was bomb ass
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- Weakness: food, trashy tv
- Which one of your friends acts the most like you: hm...probably adrienne for the randomness, becca for our weird family quirks...i don't know
- Who makes you laugh the most: any of my roommates
- Worst feeling: procrastination
- Wanted to be a model? yes
- Worst Weather?: idk. when its just gray.
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-X-Rays: yes
Ex's: it's all good
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-Year it is now: 08, only 11 days left!
-Yellow: looks good on me in the summer
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- Zoo animal: giraffe
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| Some thoughts... |
[13 Nov 2008|12:13pm] |
I have a more distinguishable pair of testicles than 75% of guys I know.
Journalism sucks...thank God I figured that out.
Adulthood is coming too fast.
I haven't laughed this much since...
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| you were all alone |
[22 May 2008|11:23am] |
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Summer Stars-Taking Back Sunday |
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do you remember the time when you and i were fine
hiding under the apple tree there was no one but you and me
we would hide from passing cars and we would have the summer stars
and we were better then then we'd ever been before
you came back to me after walking out my door
you would call me on the phone before you even got home
without me you said you were all alone
the cold wind that blows all the things i used to know
how could it play so fast never thought you'd be part of my past
would i trade it all again to get you out of my head?
cause we were better then then we'd ever been before
you came back to me after walking out my door
you would call me on the phone before you even got home
without me you said you were all alone...alone
without me by your side
you said you were all alone
give me one more chance
to prove myself to you
all the little things that i long to do
...(when you run away)
would you trade the course
...(you said that you'd be)
so that i could hold you
...(coming out my front porch)
would it all go away
...(just to see me)
and my heart is breaking
...(when you run away)
would you hear me baby
...(you said that you'd be)
as the tears are longing
...(coming out my front porch)
for what it used to be
...(just to see me)
cause we were better then then we'd ever been before
you came back to me after walking out my door
you would call me on the phone before you even got home
without me you said you were all alone
cause we were better then
...(when you run away)
then we'd ever been before
...(you said that you'd be)
you came back to me
...(coming out my front porch)
after walking out my door
...(just to see me)
you would call me on the phone
...(when you run away)
before you even got home
...(you said that you'd be)
without me you said you were all alone
...(coming out my front porch)
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| Point of Desperation... |
[09 Sep 2007|05:07pm] |
Okay. I kinda fucked up and I really really really need a floor ticket to the Fall Ou Boy concert. I have two A tickets, and I'd be willing to make an exchange of some sort (2 tickets for 1!). If ANYONE knows of an extra floor ticket, PLEASE LET ME KNOW! I WILL BUY IT! I'M DESPERATE!
thank you.
**EDIT**
Never mind. Future reference for everyone. If you only need one ticket, the Assembly Hall will most likely. I called them, asked for one floor ticket, and there was absolutely no hesitation. Oh, and don't buy off of ticket master.
That is all.
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[10 Jul 2007|04:47pm] |
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I'm getting my wisdom teeth out next monday.
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[15 Mar 2007|10:18pm] |
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i would like to achieve sheer bliss over break. i believe this is possible because of the amazing people in my life.
i hope everyone has a wonderful break and please CALL ME if you wanna hang out. or i'll call you...get ready.
peace and love
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[13 Feb 2007|12:58pm] |
NO SCHOOL TOMORROW EITHER!!!!!
that's right unit four. get on yo knees.
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[12 Feb 2007|05:53pm] |
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NO SCHOOL TOMORROW!
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[14 Jan 2007|01:27pm] |
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i really hope everyone had fun last night...because i had a blast.
thanks for the memories =)
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[02 Dec 2006|04:23pm] |
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what do you get a boyfriend for christmas?
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[13 Sep 2006|06:54pm] |
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suspension-mae |
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Lately I’m alright
And lately I’m not scared
I figured out, that what you do to me
Feels like, I’m floating on air
I don’t need to know right now
All I know is, I believe
In the very thing that got us here
And now I can't leave
Say anything, but, say what you mean
Cause I’m caught in suspension
Now, I’m wanting this for sure
And I’ll beg for nothing more
I’ll plan all day and drive all night
You’ll love what’s in store
I cant seem to stop this now
Even if it's not so clear
And I'll take what I can get
If you want me here (If you want me here)
Say anything
But, say what you mean
When you whisper you want this
Your eyes tell the same
We are gaining speed
I can barely breathe
Cause I’m caught in suspension
It’s enough for me to get excited
Is enough for me to feel well
Whoa, whoa... whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa
Say anything
But, say what you mean
When you whisper you want this
(Your eyes tell the same)
We are gaining speed (Suspension)
I can barely breathe (Oh, I can barely breathe)
Cause I’m caught in suspension (Suspension)
I’m caught in suspension
Say anything (Say Anything, Suspension)
But, say what you mean (Oh, I can barely breathe)
I’m caught in suspension (Suspension)
I’m caught in suspension
We are gaining speed (Suspension)
I can barely breathe (Oh, I can barely breathe)
Cause I’m caught in suspension (Suspension)
I’m caught in suspension
Say anything (Say Anything, Suspension)
But say what you mean (Oh, I can barely breathe)
I’m caught in suspension
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| highlight of my evening... |
[10 Sep 2006|08:09pm] |
i just joined a group on facebook called:
"Every Time I Find Out a Cute Boy Is Conservative, a Little Part of Me Dies."
i couldn't have said it better myself.
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[10 Sep 2006|12:49pm] |
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i will follow you into the dark-deathcab for cutie |
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for the first time in a long while...
i am happy with the person i am. i am happy with what i've brought along, and what i've left behind. i'm letting new people in and allowing myself to feel what i was afraid of. i'm not worried about where i'm going, where i've been, or where i am now.
I LOVE my friends and family, school, the transition between fall and summer, remembering good times, laughing with people i care about, football games, my senior girls sports bra. even yearbook is really fun right now.
wow.
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[24 Aug 2006|02:44pm] |
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ten rounds with jose |
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weinberg: "that's adorable...what is it? a beaver?"
me: "no...it's a cat."
weinberg: "oh..."
yes. that is a direct quote.
he makes me giggle like no other.
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[16 Aug 2006|10:33am] |
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don't cry for us-jic |
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It's hard to know just what to do in times like these
It's hard to know just what to say
And I'm just sitting here just asking myself why
It's good to know you feel the same
And I believe
I wanna be your everything
And anything you need.
Don't cry for us tonight
Don't cry we'll be all right
If I could I'd be by your side
Don't cry for us
You know that I'd give anything to watch you sleep
I can picture you just lying there
We don't need to say the words
'cause they don't mean a thing
You know you're not alone when someone cares.
And I believe
You are still my anything
And everything I need
Don't cry for us tonight
Don't cry we'll be all right
If I could I'd be by your side
Don't cry for us
Built of steel, we may seem weak
and rusted
But in times like these we've always won
and trusted
in ourselves
Don't cry for us tonight
Don't cry we'll be all right
If I could I'd be by your side
Don't cry for us
It's hard to know just what to do in times like these
It's hard to know just what to say
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| i just think these are funny... |
[15 Aug 2006|11:59am] |
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LAURA
L- You live to have fun.
A- You like to drink
U- You really like to chill.
R- Fuckin sexy.
A- You like to drink
A- You like to drink
B- You like people.
C- You're wild and crazy.
D- You have one of the best personalities ever.
E- damn good kisser
F- People adore you.
G- You never let people tell you what to do.
H- You are funny and loveable.
I-You have a really fine ass.
J- Everyone loves you.
K- You are really silly.
L- You live to have fun.
M-sucess comes easily to you
N- You are absolutely beautiful.P- You are best in the bed
O-.You are popular with all types of people.
P- You are best in the bed
Q- You are a hypocrite.
R- Fuckin sexy.
S-Easy to fall in love with.
T- You're loyal to those you love
U- You really like to chill.
V- You are not judgemental.
W- You are very broad minded.
X- You never let people tell you what to do.
Y- One of the best bfs/gfs anyone could ask for.
Z- Always ready.
i guess i like to drink?
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[25 Jul 2006|06:50pm] |
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bored off my ass |
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we intertwined |
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bah i'm so bored right now.
i went shopping today and bought a really cute shirt from wet seal, a belt, earrings, and some new ae jeans.
spending money always makes me happy.
i'm really stressing because yes, i hate to say it, but summer is ALMOST OVER and i still have so much shit to do. ap english, yearbook crap, interact, band. yeah. oh and i need to do my senior portraits.
why can't we all just run away and live on a beach? you know...not do anything all damn day...
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